It's All About the Maintenance
I've been thinking a lot about maintenance of late. One of my children has decided to major in facilities
management, which I took to mean that his aspiration in life is to be a janitor. I was a little disappointed in his decision. But maybe--just maybe--I was wrong.
One of the reasons I may be wrong about the whole janitor thing occurred recently. I was privileged to attend a week of teacher training at a local, private school that happens to be LDS-based. One of the speakers was the head of the school's facilities management and securities. As I listened, I was impressed by this well-spoken, intelligent man and his capability and caring. Not only did he not fit my own person judgment of a "janitor," he was truly magnifying his job. In addition to making sure the building is beautiful and well cared for, he has been preparing the school for a natural disaster, possible intruders, and other possible emergencies. I haven't ever thought of a janitor as being concerned about the future. It was inspiring because he was doing his job not only for the income for his family but also to provide a clean, beautiful place in which children can learn more about the world and its Creator.
This talk and the others that I heard during the week helped me to see that how I live the gospel has, in many ways, been childish. Just like a well cared for building, my testimony is always going to need repairs and updates. I have lived the last 25 years maintaining my seminary testimony, when in reality, I really ought to update it to a more current, adult version. Once I wrote down a testimony from a brand new (adult) member of the Church, and then compared it a year later with her more developed testimony. In many ways, I found I was jealous because her testimony was different--deeper--than mine, but I couldn't figure out why. I now know it was because she had not only maintained her beginning testimony, but she had immersed herself in the gospel and quickly updated it.
For example, I have always had a fairly decent, albeit superficial understanding of faith in my life. But instead of simply learning about faith so I can give a Relief Society lesson on it, I need to steer my life by faith. I also need to really focus not only on saying my prayers, but listening to the answers and then acting upon the thoughts I later have. Over time, I can learn the difference between revelation and my own wishful thinking based on the consequences--which requires me to pay attention not only to the problems at hand but also to think and study what has happened to me before.
Now that I know that my spiritual maintenance is more than ready for an update, how will I go about it? I'm going to participate in the goal of my stake president, which is to read the entire Book of Mormon between September 1 and December 31. I will recognize the blessings my family has received because we've consistently paid our tithing, even though it's been really, really tight. I can see (because I'm finally looking) the hand of God throughout not only my own personal history but the history of our world. And so I must admit: I'm excited to embark on a spiritual quest to become a better person. I'll even be proud to call my son a janitor.
This post was written by the wonderful Cathy. I have known her for quite some time now... and have to say, she's pretty great. Her kids are pretty awesome too.