Journey

So, this is one of those posts that I write basically stream of consciousness, because the idea won't leave my head alone, so I'll write it so I can hopefully get some peace and clarity of mind, and then rewrite it later when my thoughts are more organized.

I wanted to let you all know that I am starting a journey of self-discovery. I recognize that this is something I should have started long before now, as I've already past all the teenage years and all through college, but I am excited that I am finally getting around to it. I can't wait to see where it will take me, and who I'll meet along the way. See, knowing who I am is a key factor in how I live my life, how I interact with others, and how I can make the change in the world that I have been sent here for.

I fully believe that people become experts because it is something they are passionate about {or at least were when they began their journey}, and experts are the ones helping and making a difference. The thing is, I am not sure what it is that I am passionate about, and sometimes I fear that it is too late for me, even if I discovered it tomorrow, to do anything about it. I recognize that I have interests in life, i.e., reading/writing, dance, and psychology, but am I truly passionate about them? I've searched high and low in these and other fields and don't know quite what to do.

Success/expertise is in mastering the details, and I have yet to find the one niche where I am motivated to perfect the details, to become truly expert at them.

It's funny because people do these get-to-know you things, and want to get to know me {and I them}, but at this point, I am not sure I know who I am either. Today I watched a movie in which the main girls each had a passion, one was acting, the other was airplanes, and the last was dancing, and each had discovered this passion early on in their life. I am not saying that that discovery is necessary at a young age, but I am saying it is a vital one. I need to know me, I need to know my likes and dislikes, my fears, my joys, and most of all my passion for life. Unconsciously, I would imagine that I know who I am. However, consciously, I am still a mystery to me. I'll keep you updated here, because we all need to remember who we are and where we want to go.

I think outside perspectives are increasingly vital. For instance, it was my mom who revealed the great fact about me that when I am tired or hungry, I get grumpy. Now, this doesn't seem like a miraculous discovery, but it was a correlation I had not been able to see in myself. And, I would imagine that if I can't even put those basic things together, what else am I missing? So, I will start listening to those around me and trying to see what they see when they look at me, but most of all, I will turn to my Father in Heaven, who has guided me in the best paths.

Who am I?
Where did I come from?
Where am I going?